Dear Future Baby,
I am positively longing for the day I get to hold you in my arms. I watch other mothers and I press my hand to my unoccupied stomach and wish that you were in the world. I want to experience everything about you. I want to comfort you when you cry, laugh with you when you're happy, and support you in your goals. I want to sit up with you when you're sick, and take you to school in the mornings, and bake you cupcakes for your birthdays. You are going to be the most incredible blessing.
I want to watch you learn to walk and talk and read and explore. I want to watch you discover your passions and dreams. I want to watch you become a person completely independent of me. I will rejoice and mourn in equal parts when that happens. I'll cringe when you get your driver's permit, and make your father take you out to practice as to avoid my inevitable panicking when you miss a stop sign. And I can't wait to see you learn to love.
I hope you have his freckles and good luck and beautiful eyes...and perhaps a small portion of me. Maybe my love of words and aversion to the military. That would be nice. I'd hate to have to miss you too. I don't think I could handle worrying this much twice in one lifetime. I hope my cooking has improved by the time you can eat solid food, and that bedtime stories are a good thing, because I'm really looking forward to telling them to you.
I can't wait to meet you, but I will wait, as patiently as possible, because I already love you enough to readily admit that I'm not at all ready for you. I'm going to have to do quite a bit of growing first. And besides, I want you to grow up in the midst of the very large family that will love you more than you'll ever know. That can't happen if you come to me while I'm a whole ocean away from home.
I can feel you though. I know that you exist in some future world I haven't reached yet. I can practically hear your laugh and see your smile. And I know you're coming, someday. It will probably feel like the time flew when it gets here.
So...I'll see you soon enough, Sweetie.
All my love,
Your Someday Mom