When I get back to my hometown tonight (which I travel to every weekend for laundry/visiting purposes) I'm going to sit down with a pencil and a sheet of paper and devise some strange mathematical formula that will make my finances work out. And then I'll be making a few calls to discover which international phone plan will be the cheapest for the next 8 months or so. Any reccomendations? I'll fix this, but right now, I'm in the midst of a melt-down, and it isn't all about this bill. (Though the bill alone is enough to make me want to strangle the life out of those heartless, leeching phone companies...)
And my real family... They're a crazy bunch, but I love them to pieces. Even though I've been living away from home for more than a year now, I haven't really had a chance to miss them. I'm home practically every weekend to borrow a washer and dryer, and they phone me at least twenty times a day. Leaving next summer will be the first time we've ever really been apart. While I have always wanted an adventure, I've also always cherished the security that being so close to home provides. How will I adapt to being so far away?
I'm especially dreading leaving my baby brother. He's not such a baby anymore. At ten years old it seems like he grew up overnight. How much of his childhood will I miss when I'm gone, and will he be able to forgive me for it?
I guess I can chalk this up as another life lesson: Every bit of happiness has its price.